LOST

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I hope you hear my silent screams ….

How do I explain the depth of my feelings?
I hold you dear to my heart like the breath I draw.
Every breath filling me with the H20 of desire.
And I exhale the Carbon oxide of charm so your stem of affection can grow.

I ponder;
How do we communicate when we don’t speak the same language?
My cart load of 'hellos' eliciting the littlest 'Je ne pas Englais' from your quizzed face.

I have no tools in my disposal to measure how far I can hold on
But an invisible blinker tells me I am running empty on the tank of love.

Here I am.
Standing on a lonely road dressed in my white flowing gown
Despair written all over me like a winning bet ticket of 3 million which is shredded by a ravenous rat.
Looking side to side and wondering which jaywalker had finally made you drift away from your course.

Reality gradually dawns on me.
You are the dream man
The Monalisan masterpiece meant to complete my dull gallery.
The crown diamond meant to add glow to my bronze tiara.
Yet I cannot have you because you do not know how to keep me

The irony is,
I wouldn’t accept another lover.
For the prospects of life after Barcelona would send shivers down Messi's spine.
And the Ogre, Fiona, would never envision a life with Shrek lying dead.

I hope that you will come to know today;
That you lost me even though you found me.
That you have my shadow beside you

Isn't it amazing when we lose the grasp of what we hold dear and realize when it is too late.
Millions of clamps being tossed away by the frustrated fisherman without being forced open.

I am still standing on the lonely road.
I hope you find me again
Before I accept another who will find me and know how to keep me

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